McDonalds Gorge

It was the weekend so I decided to splurge on burgers, and didn't mean to get this much, but every time the drive through girl asked me if that was all I just kept saying no and picking something else. I just ended up with this big bag that they warned me to hold from the bottom because it was so much. I wonder if they knew I was gonna be forcing it all down by myself, because it was way too much. But I couldn't help it. It feels so good to lose control and just order a ton of food and then just sit back and cram it all down. I just HAVE to have more food all the time now. I'm just getting hungry so often that I'm never full enough. I have to keep forcing more down, more calories into my gut, every day just to keep it satiated. But I'm never full enough, never big enough. I'm the heaviest I've ever been and its still not enough. I just want to see my belly get even bigger, swell up even tighter against my clothes. I'm eating as much as I can, every chance that I can because I just NEED to blow up. Seeing how big its getting just makes me want to cram it even fuller next time I eat. Even typing this I want more. Ugh its so bad, but I can't stop thinking about getting more burgers already. Ugh why can't I stop thinking about eating for just one day, It's just always on my mind as I have to unbutton my jeans when I sit down anywhere now as my giant belly spills out on my lap. But it's worth to just keep being able to gorge myself nonstop. God I wish I had a feeder to just keep me packed at all hours of the day. Think I should keep getting more food for this gut? Or am I fat enough?