Japan Cannot Fix You!

Here is the letter. If the owner wants me to remove it they can email me. -- hope you, the Mrs and the bun in the oven are all very well :) Thanks very much for the videos, I just came to Japan this week and had been watching your vids for ages, them having helped me make a decision to actually come. Your vids are always to the point and we can get an idea at least of what the day to day realities are of being here and the like… I need your help please, sorry in advance for the rambling, I know you're busy and that this overly lame problem is not one you normally get : / So, I came here (to Tokyo, to travel to Nagoya then onwards to Osaka) with the view of staying here for the duration of my working holiday visa after I had been looking forward to coming to Japan for most of my 27 year life but weirdly - and I'm really shocked and totally ashamed to say this, I'm not actually enjoying it. And it's nothing to do with Japan - I know it's totally me! I just can't believe it, that after studying pretty much everything about it for years and learning Japanese (to a intermediate level) I still don't feel that connection to the place or people and that fact is making me question a lot of things I thought I knew about life and shit and about myself. Like how I thought I knew 100% I would adore the way things are done in Japan, the order, the structure, the quirky, kawaii and the unconventional. But all I've found in just the past few days is that actually, I apparently don't. And that fact kinda' kills me. I mean, what the fuck. I never dreamt that after just a few days I would be wanting to go home when after I had been to places in Africa, the U.S and Europe I knew I could happily live there. Why after so many years of wanting am I not happy in Japan????? It's freaking Japan dude! I know I should be thanking my lucky stars to be here and I want to kick myself right in the lady balls. Anywhoo, sorry Victor - again this is NOTHING to do with Japan, I know it's amazing and beautiful and a really amazing place to live, I see that for other people - I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I think it's my expectations that were wrong. Of Japan and myself, mostly of what I thought Japan would do for me. My life at home is fine I guess - just boring, I've figured out being here that it's me though - not where I am that's the problem. I'm the twat. Did I think Japan would solve that for me?… But - are these all just normal, nervous reactions because of change? Is a week too soon to make that choice? *face palm* I just wanted to get your opinion, please - I think also this dilemma may apply to a lot of people that think running way to another country will solve their problems. I have run this by my family but they just say come home (which is what you'd expect) - I don't know though where they are coming from - they often just tell me to do whatever I want which doesn't really help most of the time. I wonder if you, coming from an outside view can tell me like it is? Should I go home and come back when I've got my head right and just on a holiday? Should I man the hell up and go onwards to Osaka? I have no idea and I have no idea why this isn't turning out like I'd hoped. Why I'm being an idiot. Sorry to talk at you like this, if you have a spare five minutes any advice would be very much appreciated. Thanks again for the vids and thanks for reading. -- This channel, gimmeaflakeman is now solely for unedited videos. All my edited videos are now being uploaded to: http://youtube.com/gimmeabreakman --- Please ask your questions here: http://www.reddit.com/r/moronarmy/ --- Email: [email protected] - 2.5 Oyajis is broadcast live at 10:30pm EVERY Wednesday JAPAN TIME. We alternate between this channel: http://youtube.com/gimmeaflakeman and http://youtube.com/hikosaemon - Tomoko Sensei from TOMOKO DESU! videos can be found at: http://youtube.com/bowietomo0803 - ►[email protected]◄ - ►I enjoy posting on Instagram:◄ http://instagram.com/gimmeabreakman http://instagram.com/tomokotomokotomoko http://instagram.com/maggiesensei - ►Language blog◄ http://maggiesensei.com - ►Want to learn Japanese? Check out my friend Ken's online school.◄ Sign up for Ken's free weekly vids. http://www.japanesethroughanimeclass.com/member/go.php?r=1237&i=l0 - ►Japanese for Morons - Playlist 1 of 2, videos 1 - 175◄ http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEDDF3FC5BA6C602E&action_edit=1 - ►My Facebook◄ https://www.facebook.com/Gimmeabreakman - ►My blog◄ http://gimmeabreakman.com - ►For J-students◄ http://tinyurl.com/Japanesemoronstudents - ►For Flakers◄ http://tinyurl.com/jointhemoronarmy - ►For 英会話 students◄ http://tinyurl.com/actionteacher