How do I stop over thinking things? | Kati Morton

Community Question: 1. Hey Kati, I am just wondering what I can do to help myself being stuck in a heavy cycle of rumination? I have OCD and recently I have been ruminating a lot over past events in which I had intrusive thoughts enter my dreams and, even though these events were a while ago, my mind is convincing me that I am an evil disgusting person and I cannot stop ruminating badly and thinking it and it is really hard to deal with an can even impact my performance at college. I struggle with heavy amounts of guilt around the whole thing, so much so that it is crippling. I know I have no control over bad dreams and I know that I didn't want it and I also know that ruminating is pointless and solves nothing but I still cannot seem to stop.2. Is it weird to not want to get better? I've struggled with anxiety, depression, self-harm, and emotional abuse from my parents and I've been fortunate enough to be in therapy for almost a year and a half. I'm almost scared to fully recover and be happy? Like I know it's irrational, but I don't want to get my hopes up when I've always been disappointed. How can I break out of this cycle of self-sabotaging? Journal Topic: Thanks Dancinginthedarkness! It’s better to lose count while counting your blessings than it is to lose your blessing counting your struggles. I'm Kati Morton, a licensed therapist making Mental Health videos! JOURNALING CLUB! Every Tuesday & Friday I post a journal prompt to help keep you motivated and working on yourself! https://www.youtube.com/katimorton/join Ordering my book Are u ok? http://bit.ly/2s0mULy ONLINE THERAPY I do not currently offer online therapy, but I have partnered with BetterHelp who can connect you with a licensed, online counselor in your area: https://tryonlinetherapy.com/katimorton PATREON Do you want to help me support the creation of mental health videos? https://www.katimorton.com/kati-morton-patreon/ Help Caption Our Videos http://www.youtube.com/timedtext_cs_panel?c=UCzBYOHyEEzlkRdDOSobbpvw&tab=2 CONTACT Business email: [email protected] MAIL PO Box #665 1223 Wilshire Blvd. Santa Monica, CA 90403 ****PLEASE READ**** If you or someone you know is in immediate danger, please call a local emergency telephone number or go immediately to the nearest emergency room.